Bismillah.
Alhamdulillah I'm someone's fiancee now!
Alhamdulillah I'm going to be someone's wife, daughter in law and sister in law!
Alhamdulillah I'm going to be part of my husband's family!
Alhamdulillah I'm going to be fulfilling mine and my fiance's deen!
Alhamdulillah for both happiness and trials that will come, and please Dear Allah, give me and my future husband and our families the strength and patience to overcome this.
Alhamdulillah for having mercy upon me and my fiance, for blessing us with the love that has now and hopefully continue to bloom for each other, for generations to come, right to the hereafter.
Alhamdulillah for the countless blessings You have bestowed upon me and my family and my friends.
Alhamdulillah, for now, I have shifted my focus.
Before I got engaged to my fiance, I didn't really acknowledge the fact that maybe I am in love irrevocably, head over heels for him. But I had faith that Allah is those with good niat and those who put their faith in Him. And I took that leap of faith. We took that leap of faith. And what came after was a beautiful feeling that made me forget all my past, that felt as if all my mistakes were pardoned, was forgotten. It was as if, now, with this guy in my life, I have a new paper to start on, a new life to build, together with him. And that meant the whole world to me. For he a God-loving person as well and I am forever thankful for that. I can never ever take this for granted, for everything I ever asked for in my prayers, as of now, is exactly what I see in my future husband. Allah is Great.
Before I got engaged, I was single, lived a single life. I hated weddings and the fuss, I even said some crappy stuff about people who were too obsessed with their weddings. I dissed them, I couldn't understand what the big deal was. But now, being here, with my own wedding coming up within a couple of months, I understand. I understand why they don't care about everyone else, I understand why they have shifted their focus.
It's a bit hard to explain how being in love with someone makes you put everything else aside. I never really thought I could love someone and do that. Never thought that I actually would give in, calm myself down or be patient for someone. If I gave this post to my single person I would probably go Bah! What poppycock is this. some stupid fluff and stuff.
But I guess, when Allah has gave you that kind of love for someone, you don't really want to let it go to waste, you'd do anything to protect it, you put everything else aside. Priorities change, and in time, who knows insha Allah it will change again, probably for my child. It is certainly something only understandable when you're in that position.
But nevertheless, to love the gift, is to love the Giver more. Again, Alhamdulillah for the shift of focus :)
